Today was the day that I met my chubby girl weight
goal. I have done this once before
back in June of 2006. It was
really cool both times, but today I appreciate it a little bit more. I am
hopeful that I never ever have to do this again. I hope that I can make this stick for
reals.
I thought a lot about my
why lately. My why of why did you
want to get back down to this goal.
I think it has changed over the years. I think back in 2006 I was just sick of being a fat
chick. It was a vanity thing. I wanted to fit in smaller
clothes. I wanted to matter. You see fat chicks are invisible or at
least that was my experience. I
felt like people kinda discounted me since I was a chub. Don’t know if this was a fact, but it sure was the way the world made me feel.
My why of whys now is simply for better health. As I watch some of my friends and loved ones struggle with health
issues I think “Man, I don’t want that to be me”. I am at the point in my life where my parents are aging and having health issues. I am losing
relatives to disease and watching friends that are younger than me struggle
with health issues or pass away.
Smaller jeans are nice, but living to play with my future grandson (yes, still
holding out for that boy) trumps smaller jeans any day. Today I will just be happy that I no
longer look like this.
And enjoy the fact that I stood in my chair the whole time
at the Van Halen concert with these punks.
Show up and make it count!
Cindy
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